she slept with the lights on.

Hello.
I'm sad. I can't find the ace contest to win the sony ericson w810i. Seems like i'm doing a whole lotta shizz for a free phone. :\ ugh. Tomorrow's the english paper.
Hope i die in my sleep. goodnight suckers.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vq3Kd1CQI5c

I miss MALEX. I really do! I watched a video of the 2 of them and i almost cried. I love MALEX. I miss MALEX a lot. Like really, a whole lot. Man.. I think MALEX will always be the best lesbian couple in the world, even though they are fictional.

Here ye here ye! On a more formal note, I'm back! :D My internet's finally up! Well.. initially we weren't gonna have internet for a long long time but my good good parents went all out to get it back for us. How sweet! ( Seriously, I'm not being sarcastic ) Anyway, It's been 1 whole month without internet i missed out on a lot from trent and friendster. Gotta get it solved NOW!
Much love!
Out.

I just saw a really pretty crescentian girl! :D i always thought they were pretty! But she kinda got on the taxi before i got to have a good look at her name tag! :(

Go fuck em!

What can i do?
I miss you so.

I want a sampoerna. :(

Maybe it's just not What you thought it was.

Alright, spent some time with joyceh and ailin yesterday. Then was talking bout a particular person. Then, they were like she's quite nice. Then i was like, but sometimes she can be annoying, which is true cos i know her! :/ then they were saying that she's scared that i might like dislike her. Then i was like, Why? Then they were like, when you dislike a person you will really go all out, like that time with joanne. Then i was like, ooops! But truthfully, i don't stay mad at a person for very long. After awhile, i'll just become neutral with that person. And you know What's ironic? I've a fear of people hating me. And i'll like want to find out who it is and all. Ugh, yeah. Something like that.

Yeah, btw i miss You.

Oh yeah, What a Wonderful world. It's so Wonderful that i ain't got you.

.Will i be the one your calling in the middle of the night,
will i keep the rain from falling into your sky.
I promise, i promise i will.

I think the 2nd line onwards is super cliched. But no matter How, i think whoever who says this to me would be really sweet. And i'd like to go out with that person. So sweet! :D

& i know it, don't you?

Omg! It's the second day of the nautica and gant sale! I haven't gone! Must go quick before everything goes! I'm waiting to go for dim sum but i think my mum forgot already. :( needa stock up on convenience foods. Ugh. Seeya!

I feel so fucking hurt. My dad sat on my sports day medal. And he didn't even say sorry. Great. My dad's the best.

I remember when,

If there was ever thing i lied to you. It would be How much i hated you. I never hated you.

The Cures.

I don't care if monday's blue.
Tuesday's grey and wednesday too.
Thursday i don't even care about you
and friday i'm in love.

I want to know if i'm a nice person or whatever. And if anybody does talk bad about me. I'd like to know please. If you heard anything. Please tell me. I want to know! I want to hear What people think about me. Yeah. And if it really does hurt. I'd cry about it. That's all.

So, burn. Let it all fade out.

Do you really care? Or are you just waiting just for a return?

Why is it whenever i'm so close to getting whatever i wanted, it seems like it's coming but it's slowly goes away and then it becomes just a painful memory.
Exactly, i'm here without you. But you're still in my dreams.

Oh god. You know all my cuts from like a year ago still can see la! :( i should go for the lazer thing then it will be gone. Yeah! :D i want a tattoo! I was a capital G on my right index finger!

And i almost loved you.

My nose keeps bleeding. It's bleeding right now, but i'm not gonna let it flow out. The blood is really warm.

Ok, today was sports day. We came in last and third for cheerleading. Today, tingxi was there. She was not exactly friendly with me in the morning. So it made me feel a little bit awkward. I truthfully felt very sad. Cos i still think she hates me. At one point in time i was on the verge of tears. Cos the thoughts of How we used to talk and laugh about a tranny just came rushing back. The feelings, the love. Then i thought about it again, i asked myself. Is this How i'm gonna move on and remind myself of whatever ruined me then and just end up being a sucker again like last year apparently not.

Alright. This is too much information. I think i've been brutally honest with this blog ever sinced i moved. Damn.

What do i have to do to convince you that this is real.

I guess the teachers are now having a great time at that victor bowl place. It's 5. Prolly they are already leaving the place. I really wanted to go. But mrs kong was going so yeah.. <
I sort of told tanya and krystal that i kinda like _. Krystal was like, NO!!! And tanya was like omg! You like _, How come!? So technically, i don't have an answer for either or them. It's more of a crush. Like, bernice and Yimei. Prolly it's also an infatuation like, joanne phua and germaine. Alright, i've no idea Why i'm confessing all this. Weird, very weird.

I'm in a confessing mood. And suddenly i've all there dumb urges to put a razor blade on my under arm and go slashing away. I'm not trouble by anything. But this is the cleanest i've felt in a long long time. I just feel like feeling How the pain feels again.
Hmmm. We will see...

305 ways to make you want to go away.

Alright. I finished doing my f&n already. I'm feeling really shagged. I needa sleep. Today, i wanted to post a public apology following up on What i blogged about yesterday. But, i figured that i shouldn't use my phone cos it'd be mega slow!

Today miss sim taught our math class! She said some girls blogged something nasty about miss low the trainee teacher. Somehow, miss sim gave very subtle hints that she cried. It's kinda obvious though. Sometimes, being a teacher is really tough. You get pressure from every side. Like, the principal, pressing for results. Students, they want a teacher who isn't "bitchy" and can be "bullied" but it's ironic How students complain How teachers can't teach when they aren't particularly making an effort whatsoever to find out What is being taught. Being a teacher is a really tough job. It's more of passion which brings normal people to want to take up a job which can break you so easily. Instead of commenting on teachers and their methods of doing things. We should actually admire and be inspired by such civillians.

Ahh... The irony of my words.

Losing grip.

First of all, i need to say that i'm utterly disappointed with myself. Whoops! Natania just sent a text. Ok, alright. As i was saying, i'm really disappointed with myself because i listen to people to conclude my judgement on what a person is like. First of all, i'm not doing justice to the person and secondly, it's just selfish.
I'm writing this because, suddenly, my perception of a particular person has changed.

God bless you, Isabelle.

Novacaine for the soul.

I once had a love,
she was just like you.
she broke my heart,
like how you are going to.


i've gotten accustomed to blogging on my phone. Shit la, the air-con's so fucking cold. Everytime we touch by Cascada is on the radio. Like the slow like hell one. Right. It's a very sad song. :( i feel sad. Thanks a lot fucking radio. I wanna be fucking happy! I've been thinking bout some things and i'm like Why is everything changing? Oh fuck. This is so stupid. Bye bye.

Alright, some shizz on my life right now.

I've finally deleted all those messages. I mean i read a few and i wondered, did she ever like me too? Well... Truthfully i don't know and i don't think i'll ever find out cos we don't even talk to more and if she ever reads something like that she'd go something like, who the fucking hell does she think she is she doesn't even look half as good as Debbie or kimberley. Just my thoughts on it though. Anyway! I've fucking deleted all the messages. Like finally! They were dated 23.8.05. Not like it's VERY long, but it just feels so. I kinda miss her a lil still though. :(


i've just moved into the new old house! No yay or any cheers cos no one likes the house. Serious. Haha. My dad says another 6 months and we will go back to our sweet house! My mum says 9. I hope it will turn out nice. I wanna paint my own room. But we will just have to wait and see cos i'm still stuck in this cheeby place. :(



PEACE OUT.
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